suggest me one.

i was very weak in maths during my school days and hence i am a successful civil engineer now.(haha).
Can any body see what i am seeing now? Can anybody say what i am thinking now?
This was what i thought of asking my maths teacher and my maths tution master, when ever they asked me why i am not able to understand the basics of formulaes and their derivatives.They didnt understand the basic fact that their brain is designed to be mathematical oriented and mine not so.

Oh! dude!Those were the terror periods when i used to attend maths class.The integers, the numericals, the theorems, the trignometry, the venn diagram,geometry,integration, the derivations, prove the theorem.....etc.etc..etc.!.

The one big question i am still unanswered is that, we were told to use a LOG book to calculate some angle values , i suppose,! till now i am very sure that i dont know how to use it.

The only good thing that i found in attending the maths tution was that i was able to see my "Aal"(my love) even after school hours.our tution master was very much frustated about my knowledge ,he even gave me the freedom to get out of his class, if i am not interested in attending the tution class.But fate was against me,u see, my house was exactly the opposite house to the tution class.)